Why won’t pregnancy brain go away? Its been 5 weeks since I had the baby and the amount of things I forget to do on a daily basis, is astounding. It is a wonder I get pants on before walking out the door. I wish I could use sleep deprivation as an excuse but I can Not. Baby girl is amazing. She only wakes up once or twice a night, eats and goes right back to sleep. So I am getting as much if not more sleep than pre-pregnancy. The instances of postpartum forgetfulness have been uncountable. It frustrates me to no end because I am usually a very organized and on top of the situation person. However, I feel totally out of control right now. Whether it is the added responsibility of taking care of a newborn or a hormone imbalance, this little side effect is my least favorite.
Don’t get me wrong, after having 3 kids I am well versed in postpartum side effects. From depression to night sweats, none of them are pleasant but they have all passed. This time around I am having night sweats and forgetfulness, which I will take over the depression that I had with my 2nd. The other morning though, the straw that broke the camels back dropped.
It was a Saturday morning and as per the norm I was cooking breakfast for my family, listening to music and generally having a great morning. I was about to finish the sausage and put biscuits in the oven to bake when I started to smell something awful. Like burnt plastic. I asked my husband “do you smell that? What is that?” Then it hit me like a ton of bricks. I ran back into the kitchen from the restroom, threw open the stove door and there in all its melted glory; was the dinner from the night before and the plastic blue plate it had been on. The plate was in the middle of melting completely all over the inside of the oven.
In my panic, I shut the oven door and pressed the cancel button which effectively turns the heating element off. The hubs came over and handled everything because in the mix of my crisis, the boys started asking a million questions about going outside, toys they saw on TV and ideas for activities they wanted to do for the day. Then on top of all that, the baby announced in her very loud way that she was awake and hungry. Being a mommy, I handled the baby’s feeding while fielding the boys questions. All the while the hubs blew the smoke outside with a box fan and scraped all the melted plastic up and into the trash. Cleanup lasted a total of 15 minutes total. All my freaking out and worry for 15 minutes of cleanup. Being frustrated, I started to cry over the whole thing, which is so ridiculous considering it was all over. The hubs hugged and reassured me that everything was fine but I didn’t feel fine. I feel like my brain is mush. Why in the world would my brain continue to fail me in a time that I need it most. Having a new little human to take care of as well as the continued care of my boys is literally my life and things like melting a plate in the oven, are avoidable accidents that I cannot stomach repeating. In the scheme of things it was a stupid mistake and it scared me enough that I am taking extra time to think things through.
As with everything else with pregnancy, it will pass. A women goes through so much growing a human that everyone kinda forgets that the changes don’t stop once the baby pops out. The mind, like the body, takes time to get back to its previous state. It takes practice, patience and work to regain pre-pregnancy body as well as cognitive function. Everyday, I get better and stronger.
This week, I am getting back into working out……slowly. I am going to start with Yoga for the week and also get back to eating more vegetables instead of the crap food I’ve been consuming. Honestly, It is going to suck. As a precaution, I am going to keep a journal of all the different foods I eat and how little Miss reacts after breastfeeding. That way of she gets fussy, I can at least know where it came from.
On top of working out, maybe I can find a brain camp to enroll in so that I can work out my brain. Till then hopefully I can continue putting pants on before leaving the house or I will be hearing from the boys “why is your butt out mommy?” cause honestly no one needs to see that flat thing. LOL
As I move forward I will once again be taking progress pictures of my before and after. I will also be giving updates on workouts I am doing, foods I am eating and my failure stories, As well as how I cope with all the kids during workouts and breastfeeding.
Once again, now that pregnancy is over, I am in search of the ME in mommy!
Wish me luck, I am going to need it.
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