It has come too soon. I wasn’t ready and yet it has come and gone in the blink of an eye. And as I wake up this morning, I am a mommy of a 5-year-old little boy, who no longer can be classified as a toddler but a full on little boy. That scares me, makes me happy and saddens me all at the same time. I still remember the baby I was gifted with after many hours of hard labor. He was the most beautiful thing I have ever seen. He was everything I have ever wanted and prayed for. Still is.
As we have watched him grow, we have reveled in the opportunities that he has presented, the laughs that he has given, the personality that he has developed and the intelligence he exhibits on a daily basis. He makes me proud to call him my son and I can not believe he is 5! He will make an amazing big big brother and I look forward to his maturity in that regard. However, I don’t want him to mature too much he is still my little boy. I want to watch him help with the baby, and make it laugh. He has the most wonderful laugh, full of joy and uninhibited happiness. You know when he laughs, he truly finds something funny. I can’t wait to see him with the baby. The same with our youngest too. Whom I had to take to OB counseling yesterday for the new baby. Being from Arkansas I have never had to go through a “counseling” session. I mean what can I learn with this being my 3rd? A LOT! Its been nearly 4 years since my last baby and there had been quite a bit that has changed. And being in a new state, they might have different procedures. My patience is going to be tested during appointments, the youngest ran around like crazy and asked a million question. Which I guess is expected and at least he is asking.
This hospital also has prenatal classes, which I never got to attend, that I want to participate in. Maybe I should bring the oldest with me so he can learn? It’s a thought. Besides the free samples, diapers and door prizes, I would like to learn as much as possible. I miss having a baby and I also wish to breast feed longer with this one then I could with the boys. Hopefully by going to the classes I can be better prepared.
It’s exciting to be becoming a mommy of 3 and each day I become much more so. I’m still in a bit of disbelief and I think I will continue to be until that first real doctors visit. I honestly believed and accepted that we couldn’t have anymore and now we have been blessed. It’s unbelievable. I would appreciate prayers, and good will. Thank you!